With love.

What do you do when you're scared?

Scared of history repeating itself. You tell yourself that it's possible all the time. You tell yourself that this time, it might be somebody else involved. You tell yourself that this is the time to be careful.

But on the other hand, you know it's wrong to doubt that party. But you just can't help but be careful. You just can't help but tell yourself that it COULD happen again. Maybe it's just your own feelings. But sometimes, intuitions are right. And it's so right, it shoots right back to your own face that you ask myself again and again, where did you go wrong now? And you think about it every time. Every time you're not busy, when your mind starts to wonder. Because that party's done it. Again and again.

Then there comes a point where you tell yourself..

Maybe you could do it too. Revenge is sweet, all the time. Maybe this time, that person could feel how you felt back then.

BUT, again, you feel that it's unfair. Revenge is NEVER nice.

Sigh.

These are pictures for Thursday's dinner. As you can see, Erwin has grown bigger and my boyfriend, sigh. I don't know what happened lah.

I AM SICK! Omg, I am feeling so awful right now. Walking don't feel like walking anymore. I feel like I'm floating all the time. Sucks huh. Everytime I sleep, my temperature goes up. ): I'm waiting for 3.30 to come so that I can eat my medicines and go to sleep again. I'll visit the doctor in the morning. Prolly the one opposite my block.

AND PLEASE, LET ME GET WELL SOON! ): I FEEL AWFUL NOW.

I hate liars.

They are NEVER my bestfriend. I especially hate it when people lie for attention. Makes me sick. In this world where the internet is a weapon, you see rumours spreading out like fire. All in all, the ones who are making the problem bigger are usually the ones who are not involved in the situation. But why is it that the victims themselves don't wish to clear their name? Why is it that both are just such cowards to face themselves and settle it all at once? God knows. Messages being passed around. An information that was once pure, is now stained and being led on as something else that is obviously not true. When information is being passed on, the content changes with the people that passes them on because humans' level of understanding differ. When this happens, the people around them do not know who to believe. The victim is a friend. But there has been too much rumours, it's getting sick. But who are we to interfere in affairs? Who are we to settle it for them? I just felt betrayed. Act of desperation. The other victim's name and pride is being sacrificed, it's not fair. I shall rest my case.

I am staying home today! No, I'VE STAYED HOME FOR THE WHOLE DAY, TO BE EXACT. -_-"

Okay, I'mma play baking life, goodbye! :D

Hello!

I am supposed to feel tired at this hour but I'm not. Strange.

Anyhoots, Wednesday was good! Boyfriend came over my workplace together with his friend, Alfian. I was the one who forced him to come over since I wanted to pass him his belated birthday present. So what did I get for the boy?

Yeap, an FCUK watch. Specially for him. He didn't say anything but he kept smiling and eventually, posted up a picture on his FB. -_-" Ohwells. Little sister is having fever still. I was hangin out with all the rest after work on that Tuesday when she called crying. Luckily, her temperature subsided a little. But I don't know how it will be till tomorrow so I'll be accompanying her to the doctor.

Let's talk about my Wednesday. I O.V.E.R.S.L.E.P.T my way through. I was supposed to send my little sissy to the clinic. I only woke up around 3. Besides that, I was thinking of getting ready a little earlier and do some shopping alone. But no, I just had to sleep a little more. But it's okay I guess since I haven't had proper rest since god knows when. I was planning to have a stay home Saturday this weekend. I am tired of being out all day. I wanna lock myself in the room this weekend and just watch movies, read mags, do some cleaning and whatsoever.

So yeah. My Wednesday was pretty good! In fact, good is an understatement. It was great! Just being able to do everything in one day makes me feel adequate and complete. I went for my hair trim. My hair is so much thinner and manageable. Loves it! It's so much softer and manageable. I always have to get my hair trim every month or two. It grows too fast sometimes. And I have to go back to the same place! Else, I'd be fuming if I don't get it the way I want it. At least that turned out well. :)

Went home, got ready, called the boyfriend up and headed for Far East first for some browsing. I saw a few shops that sells atrocious footwear! Omg. Lady Gaga inspired shoes are definitely not practical! Only idiots wear them! I only saw a few pretty wedges, the rest are erk, not my type? I only spent 15 minutes browsing and I ended up buying a pair of suede open toe heels in grey. Loves it! Wanted to buy electric blue but it looks kinda cheap and I might have trouble pairing it up. So whatever. I am happy with my choice. Boyfriend picked me up from Far East. Parked the bike at Raffles, met Mommy and walked to Marina. Had dinner at Seoul Garden. Little sissy wasn't there.

Seriously, seoul garden should do something with their selection of food. It's so BORING! OMG. We should've known. Could have gone for a better buffet place. But ohwells, what's done is done. What I find most appetising about the place was only the ice creams! I had yam and chocolate chip mint! Loves it! It was great catching up with everyone. Big brother brought his little girlfriend along, Nissa! :) Nice meeting her. Erwin was as usual, chirpy. Boyfriend was like all happy to entertain him. :) We ate till around 10-ish and the rest left for home while boyfriend and I went roaming around and only managed to reach home around 1-ish.

I have work later. But before that, I gotta remind myself to send little sissy to the clinic. Baaaaah! & Let's just hope that boyfriend goes to school tomorrow. Okay, I gotta sleep now.

Kisses!

Omg. Look at how long I haven't been blogging. I'm sucha prat. I don't even keep my personal organizer updated. My life is haywire. I don't remember what I've done anymore. I can do something today and forget it tomorrow. STM much? Hmph.

Anyways, hello blog! Pardon me for the lack of updates. I have been going through a lot these days. Both good and bad. I should be sleeping by now actually since I planned to go to town and Bugis early in the morning to get heels, clothes and a new bag just for Thursday's family dinner. Vainpot, I know. -_-" Maybe I'll just get the heels first and everything else later. I'll see about that. :) I have work tomorrow anyways. I.DREAD.WORK. Gosh. I've been feeling so tired these days. Haven't been returning home on time. Sometimes I'm out with the boyfriend and other times, I'll be hangin out with them workmates. Haven't had proper rest since my birthday.

Boyfriend went to school just now. Even when his school is like 5 minutes away from mine, it's hard to meet up. Why? Cause I'm working all the time and he'll be tired by then. So, he ends up going home straight or going to work after that. Just now was exceptional though. He came over to my workplace. I made him a drink with I love you Alif written on it and he bought me a heart shaped bun. Cuteness. Heeee.

He just sent his bike for further modification. So much for working to pay bills. Boys and machines, you can never understand them. Work was okay today. I felt extra tired, god knows why. Maybe due to the lack of sleep. I had to irritate the shit out of Wendy to entertain myself. I tied her hair high up and it looked cute! She should change that hairstyle! Okay random.

I'm playing with Motmot now, my new kitty. You can view his photos over at my FB account. He's short, stubby, fat and fluffy! Reminds me of Agnes, Despicable Me. Lol. "It's so fluffy I'm gonna die!!" HAHA. Oh god, this little Motmot has been catching the attention of so many people! I think he's adorable. He's like my cats' little brother now. However, I still miss Oreo. I was close to tears the other night when I dreamt of him. Dear Allah, wherever my kitty is, please protect him. I pray for his safety, I miss him. Too much. ): He's super close to me. Whenever I come home from a long day at work, I just have to stand at the door and he'll come running. He's my sleeping companion, my everything. He's just like all my other cats, except that he share something special with me. He's one cat that I've had and trained since birth. Sigh. I still wish he was here. Maybe Allah sent Motmot for a reason.

I am really drained right now. I need a quick shower and I'll head to bed. Will update again soon. Night.

XOXO.

Formspring;

What are the most important traits in a man, in your opinion?
The ability to care and love. The basics. And the most important thing is respect. Looks and materials ain't important. :)

If you had to give up all but one vice in your life, what would that vice be ?
None. I guess. There is no vice that I can exceptionally not give up.

What's your take on pre-marital sex?
Hmmm? It's normal these days. It's everywhere. You can never stop it even when you try to.

lolx. atika, nvr change. tak abis2 tukar link. haha.
Heh. As usual. :)

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Hello hello! Been almost a week huh. I haven't really had the time to update properly. Been very tired. I still have loads of resting to do. :D I did nothing much from last week. Have been working all week. Hung out with the boys on Saturday and played Monopoly Deal after work till about 4, close to 5. I'm in love with that game! I likes!

Sunday was the same old, Monday was extraordinary. Ira was working, some incidents happen, which explains my status; Real men don't hit women. I never really liked poking my nose into people's business but when it gets a little out of hand, I have to cause I care. And only god knows how much I care for the people around me. Had fun at work though. Ihsan treat us to Pizza Hut and we played Monopoly Deal AGAIN. Shazzy cried. I comforted her.

Tuesday, was off day. Overslept a little and went to meet boyfriend. We argued but laughed in the end. I love that brat lah. He's super fat and cute. Love makes you crazy sometimes. Haha. Went to see Atyra after that and home sweet home.

Shift just now was crazy. I woke up at 2.30 when my shift was at 2.45. Reached at 3. Well, that's how fast I can get ready. Hehhhh. :D Zahra was the one working instead of Yusry. But I had fun. Now my sisters are planning for a meet up on Friday. I hope I can wake up.

And I'm missing my fat boy. Sighs. Love love you lah baby. :)

Goodnight.

I miss Mohamed Alif! He's at home sleeping and here I am thinking of him at 3AM in the morning. ):

Anyhoots, my Thursday was alright. Planned to go Sentosa alone in the morning but my butt just won't get up and leave my bed. So, instead of waking up at 8, I woke up at 2 instead. And instead of heading straight for the shower, I lay in bed, just tossing and turning.

Reached town to meet Lily only around 5. Afra called, saying that she'll be seeing us in a bit. Bitched with Lily and her friend over at Cineleisure while waiting for Ria to finish her interview. Wanted to buy tickets for Sex and the City 2 but it was all selling fast. -_-" So we headed for Cathay. There were seats but unfortunately, the timing sucks. Everything only ends at around 11.45? And by then, it would be too late for us to catch the train/bus and we had to work the next day too. So we passed. Ended up just chilling around Cathay and PS. Afra went to Novena and came back again. -_-"

Okay pictures!

Now I want to sleep. BYE!

What are the most important traits in a man, in your opinion? The ability to care and love. The basics. And the most important thing is respect. Looks and materials ain't important. :)

If you had to give up all but one vice in your life, what would that vice be ? None. I guess. There is no vice that I can exceptionally not give up.

What's your take on pre-marital sex? Hmmm? It's normal these days. It's everywhere. You can never stop it even when you try to.

lolx. atika, nvr change. tak abis2 tukar link. haha. Heh. As usual. :)