What do you do when you're scared? 

Scared of history repeating itself. You tell yourself that it's possible all the time. You tell yourself that this time, it might be somebody else involved. You tell yourself that this is the time to be careful. 

But on the other hand, you know it's wrong to doubt that party. But you just can't help but be careful. You just can't help but tell yourself that it COULD happen again. Maybe it's just your own feelings. But sometimes, intuitions are right. And it's so right, it shoots right back to your own face that you ask myself again and again, where did you go wrong now? And you think about it every time. Every time you're not busy, when your mind starts to wonder. Because that party's done it. Again and again. 

Then there comes a point where you tell yourself.. 

Maybe you could do it too. Revenge is sweet, all the time. Maybe this time, that person could feel how you felt back then. 

BUT, again, you feel that it's unfair. Revenge is NEVER nice. 

Sigh.